My husband and I have been together since I was 16 and I am now 23. We have been married for a year and a half. We had some problems last year and he moved out for awhile. Whilst he was living away from our property, he started sleeping with someone else. Although it hurt me more than anything else on this planet, I forgave him. However things didn't feel right and it was always a struggle.
I have just found out he has been sleeping with someone else for the last month. She is about 15 years older than him with 2 kids to different partners. She lives about an hour away from us and they are already planning on getting a house together in the same town as I now live. He moved out just a week ago but obviously he was still sleeping in my bed when he was playing away. Her children are already calling him Daddy and I know (through facebook) that she already calls him "her future husband".
I am no longer "friends" with him on facebook but some of my friends are so they have gather circumstantial evidence against him for adultery. All I have seen is them writing to each other saying how much they love each other, how they can't wait to live together and be a proper family.
This makes me sick to the stomach. I cannot understand why he did this to me and our marriage. I am absolutely heartbroken beyond anything I ever thought possible. It breaks my soul and tears me apart.
Although a part of me hates his guts, another part of me is incredibly sad. I feel such a great loss in heart because he is all I have ever known, all I ever wanted and I miss who he used to be. I do not know how to overcome these feelings. I want to be strong and know that I am better off without him but I have no idea where the hell to start.
I have been making sure I have plenty of things planned with my family and friends but when I am home alone, I cry a lot. There is nothing in the house of his anymore because he took everything with him but I can't seem to stop thinking about our memories. It consumes me from the minute I woke my eyes to the moment I close them again. Even then I am haunted by horrific nightmares.
If anyone has any words of advice or similar stories, I would really appreciate it.